my story at Moms and Kids Mag November 2008 Issue

I have written a blog about my story of becoming a single parent. It was Christine who first informed me about this Magazine asking for "single moms/dads' stories".. At first i was hesitant.. I don't feel writing at all.. I don't have the passion that time to write.. I am not driven after all.. But then came the last day of submission, i was able to compose a good blog. Am not a good writer, not even gifted to be one.. But here's the good news, i got lucky it was included in the November issue of the Moms and Kids Magazine..

for those who doesn't know anything about me at all, here's the summarized story about how i became a single parent and why Mikyla Yzabel doesn't have her dad.

Hi Moms & Kids Magazine!!l
greetings in the name of our Lord.

I just happen to see your post at the multiply site aboout having a topic regarding single parenthood.
And i just got this feeling the want to share with you guys my story..a single parent by fate and not by choice.

im 24 when i got pregnant with my daughter. My boyfriend/lover was my online boyfriend. (We met at the internet,-mIRC).
our relationship went further beyond the cyber world. We met, we dated for a while and after sometime i got pregnant with my daughter.
my parents was not really in favor of him..he was unemployed that time,and actually during the whole nine months of pregnancy, we weren't able to see each other for i am being retrained to do so, parents are so mad that my father could kill if he saw him during those times..

but things have changed when yzabel was born. Zeus(my boyfriend) dared to visit us at home to see his daughter, not fearing what might happen if my father will see him.. but things went out just fine after they all talked..and from then on, things went on smoothly for us, for our "family" .. but then, hindi lahat ng oras eh masaya.. after yzabel was baptized, Zeus was hospitalized and was diagnosed with heart enlargement.. at first we all thought it's gonna be ok, but for some serious health problem, it got worse, and in no time December 2006 he died, 7 months after our daughter was born. i was at shock for about a month.. being a first time mom is not that easy much so being alone/single. School was not great for me then(for i am a law student and at the same time a mother).. it was really hard.. losing a lover, a partner and a friend all at the same time.. Hinanakit ko sa Diyos that time was, baket kung kelan pa OK na ang lahat lahat sa amin.. but God has purpose. although hard to accept, He knows best still..

it was really a tragedy for me. the worse thing i could ever imagined just had happened.. and brought me so many fears..questions like, what will i do with yzabel, ALONE? will i be a good mother and father all in one. How can i provide for her needs/wants. What will i tell her when she asks where's her daddy.. Things are easy for those couples who just separated, at the least parents are both alive and can be present at all important events of the child's life. Until now am jealous of those babies/kids with complete set of parents. they get to enjoy each parent's company..

as time goes by, nasanay na din ako na wala si Zeus sa tabi ko.. i was able to upbring yzabel with the help of both my parents and Zeus' parents. i was able to survive all the ups and downs of being a single mom.. and in fact, am so glad and so thankful that yzabel have been so sweet and nice and loving to me..she reminds me of her dad each time i look at her eyes.. she have grown so fast, she's healthy and smart. i thank God that despite of all those hardships and pain from the past He still gives me all the wonderful blessings.. i could not ask for more..

and now, am trying to make a living while studying.. i worked as a freelance photographer and i have a sideline online business that provides party needs.. thanks for the opportunity to look back again with a smile..

for the whole issue preview click here!!

Included also in the mag were Sidney Castaneda, Ram Symon Orquiza,Mommy Rhederlee (mariam's mom) and Villestas Family.. hehehe sila lang medyo narecognize ko.. ^_^